my thoughts were so loud i couldn't hear my mouth

So, I've been thinking... A WHOLE LOT recently.
one thought that held my attention was trying to understand what makes people afraid to be genuine.
I consider myself to be an independent thinker, and going along with that I like to do what makes me ultimately happy... like everyone else.
However, I think that some people's happiness is dependent upon others happiness. Rather than establishing one's self concept, identity and becoming an ALLY with oneself rather than the enemy is when inner strength comes to be who you truly are, or believe to be at the time.
There is pressure in the world, I am aware to conform to the ideologies that are placed upon us all... Even the strong willed independent person that I consider myself to be I have succumbed at times to what society's idea of happiness is and tried to subscribe to that.
Trust me, what others preach about happiness is irrelevant to one's own life.
Happiness comes within...

Everyone remembers of course the whole concept of Freud's
id (pleasure)
ego (interactions with reality)
& super ego (morals, supercedes all other centers)
i assume. (google it if you're unfamiliar)
I think that where the gap stems in love from oneself is that too much emphasis is placed on the ego... rather than finding the inner strength that comes from relying upon one's own super ego. The ego focuses on the current situation in an emotional context whereas the super ego realizes the underlying perfection that is untainted by circumstance.


It surprises me that there are so many beautiful people with such great life experience that put on a "show" to try and convince the world what they believe others want them to be. It's like this elephant. Adding all of these decorations ( doing things in the open so others have a specific perception of you) detract from the natural beauty and purpose that is inherent in each of us. Elephants aren't meant to fly. Even with wings attached... still they can't fly even though the appearance of wings suggests the capability of flight.
You are who you are... be open. be honest with yourself. love being an elephant.

If you don't get what you want, you suffer; if you get what you don't want, you suffer; even when you get exactly what you want you still suffer because you can't hold on to it forever. Your mind is your predicament. It wants to be free of change. Free of pain, free of obligations of life and death. But change is a law and no amount of pretending will alter that reality" Dan Millman

“The great teachings unanimously emphasize that all the peace, wisdom, and joy in the universe are already within us; we don't have to gain, develop, or attain them. We're like a child standing in a beautiful park with his eyes shut tight. We don't need to imagine trees, flowers, deer, birds, and sky; we merely need to open our eyes and realize what is already here, who we really are -- as soon as we quit pretending we're small or unholy.”