when it becomes too much

Andy and I just MIGHT be spending a little too much time together...

we are starting to look alike!!!

hahaha gross.

Here's what we've been up to:

Newport Beach trip

The Tuckers, Bogenschutz, Lees, a Parker (tyson ha), a Beatty (Stacey), Wrights, where all there ready to party... SO much fun : )

While we were there.. we also picked up some "souvenirs"...
CRABS, AND OTHER STUFF
from Joe's Crab Shack. haha

I discovered this beauty from cupcakesandcashmere.blogspot.com and ohmygoodness, FELL IN LOVE. Trader Joe's sells pizza dough for $1.29. Andy & I especially like the whole wheat variety... All you do is let it rest. roll it out. top it off. throw it in the oven... Ours looked like this: DELICIOUS. this is the beginning of TUESDAY PIZZA NIGHTS. I like making my own so you have control putting what you want on it... you can make it as healthy or unhealthy as you want : ) ENJOY.





Andy and I have also been playing alot of volleyball and a little bit of tennis... We have found a new sport there and have started training immediately...
CHICKEN FIGHTING
with Parker and Dani.
Dani tried using mind games by explaining that she used to have tournaments when she played water polo, and that she was hesitant to fight because she was just worried about me...
a few seconds into the first round, 'Wow. You're strong"
Thats right... PARKER AND DANI, watch out.

OH! and andy is playing church softball... haha. It's playoffs now so I've been the cheerleader in the stands. Seriously screaming, and everyone else is silent. haha. Its fun watching all of the home runs. Thats right, he's pretty much a stud. Im sure you can tell from that picture, thank you google. I should probably bring my camera to a game...

a summer to do

Do you have a... Favorite Summer Activity?
[please share]

the power of secret-ing

Remember THIS beauty from the last post?

Somehow I secret-ed this image into my life [ http://www.thesecret.tv/ ] WHICH, I do in fact believe in. What you seek is what you will find...




STORY TIME:
Andy & I are sort of obsessed with ice cream and are frequent shoppers of Save Mart late at night. One night, a moustache machine caught our eye, but WE HAD NO QUARTERS. So, we were totally bummed but figured we'd be back soon, we really are addicted, and will remember to bring proper currency the next time. So the next time rolls around, quarter in hand... and THEY ARE OUT. Depressed, we shoved giant fruit gumballs into our mouths and walked out feeling quite dejected. Next time, same story... minus the gumballs. However, when we were busy enjoying Christmas in July ( ice skating ) WE FOUND THIS BEAUTY IN THE LOBBY. Dreams DO come true. Andy in a stache = sexi mexi. i dig.

objects in mirror are closer than they appear

So as of lately, a few things have fallen into place.

1) I have a nanny job this summer taking care of the sweetest nine year old baby boy, Brennan. His mom Kristy, who is way awesome, works at a plastic surgery office and I recently got a complimentary, read: free, microdermabrasion. I love nanny perks.

2) Swim America is adios. Working from 7-7 just was killing me...

3) I'm working at a dental office for doctor malan, and have a new found obsession for scrubs. haha. I absolutely love it there and it has solidified my decision to become a...

DRUMROLL PLEASE...

Dental Hygienist

It has been something that I've been considering for a while and it finally just clicked. I wanted to see what being one would actually be like so I figured working in the environment and talking to people that actually do it would help me to make a decision. In my family, I am the go to "pseudo" dentist. I pull teeth of siblings and cousins left and right. I guess I love mouths. Here are the specs:

During a dental appointment, a hygienist typically removes soft and hard deposits from a patient's teeth; examines the gums and teeth to discern the presence of disease or oral abnormality; and strips the teeth of calculus (tartar), stains and plaque. A dental hygienist often performs as well root planing (a type of periodontal therapy), takes x-rays and applies cavity-deterring agents (fluoride or sealants).
In some regions of the US, in certain instances hygienists are permitted to administer anesthetics and perform other tasks generally attributed to a dentist, duties such as filling application, periodontal dressing, suture removal and metal restoration polishing.
A dental hygienist takes on a somewhat academic role as well; he or she educates dental patients on how to establish and maintain suitable oral hygiene, often with the aid of teeth models to give the patient a visual sense. The hygienist should leave the patient with a good understanding of proper brushing habits and the relationship between diet and oral health.

Salary can range from 60-80k.

Like I said, I work in a dental office and already I've been suited up and allowed to suction mouths. WAHOO. seriously though.. i love it : ) I have always wanted a "career" and this allows me to be as serious about one, or flexible ( part time ) as I want. This fall/winter I'll be taking dental pre-reqs then headed off to San Juaquin Valley College Visalia.

you look good today

Equating the physical body with "I," the body that is destined to grow old, wither, and die, always leads to suffering. To refrain from identifying with the body doesn't mean that you no longer care for it. If it is strong, beautiful, or vigorous, you can appreciate those attributes—while they last. You can also improve the body's condition through nutrition and exercise. If you don't equate the body with who you are, when beauty fades, vigor diminishes, or the body becomes incapacitated, this will not affect your sense of worth or identity in any way. In fact, as the body begins to weaken, the light of consciousness can shine more easily.

money can't buy happiness. but it can buy marshmallows, which is sort of the same thing.

Andy and I went to his friends' Luke & Jodi's wedding in Paso Robles. Andy played baseball at Fresno State with Luke and he and his now wife are the most gorgeous couple. It was beautiful wedding though it was also extremely hot, 108 degrees!!!

The food was delicious, people were fun, but the BEST part was hanging out with Andy ...

if you're waiting for a sign, this is it

So often we wait for "signs" signals for change, when every day in and of itself is a new day, time for change. DON'T WAIT, today is THE day.

I love this. In the moment is seems as if everything is just the worst. However, THINGS WORK OUT the way that they're supposed to. Sometimes you have to go through alot of "suck & yuck" to get to the really good stuff. Without getting rid of other things in your life, there wouldn't be room for good to be flooded in. Sometimes we hold onto bad, but don't realize that if we'd just let go things would be SO much better.

Things will work out the way they're supposed to as long as you ALLOW THEM TO HAPPEN.

When you open your mind and heart, incredible things start to happen

Life happens. There is underlying perfection in the everyday that is untainted by circumstance. Situations are just that.. situations. Whether positive or negative they are merely there, however we can rise above and maintain our happiness. Change is constant and things will always change, our attitudes keep those changes from altering our happiness.

It all starts with YOU. Make yourself whole. Love yourself. It makes me sad when people say, "I'll be happy once I ... get married, or fall in love" Another person can't COMPLETE you, compliment you.. yes. If you are dependent on another for validation and worth... IT WON'T WORK OUT. Make yourself whole, you are beautiful.

Here's to happy goodbyes.

You are unique. An individual. There is no one like you. Never doubt that you are loved. You are here for a reason... If you doubt that, go help some people. You'll feel better.

I can't believe that people seek happiness by destroying others happiness. It just brings pain. Only the ego is boosted that feeds off the whole, "I'm right, you're wrong" mentality. And newsflash! The ego is never satisfied. Happiness comes from a peace within yourself.

NO ONE can do what you can.

I'm putting this in my future home. I love this.

LET GO of things you know aren't right, and let the good flood in!

au revoir life plans

I used to LOVE to write these life plans. More than anything I think I found the possibilities of many different roads and outcomes appealing. At 19, my whole life is literally at my fingertips. The freedom that I have RIGHT NOW, I will never experience again. If I decided I wanted to pick up and move to an island, I could. NOTHING IS STOPPING ME. However, I think there is danger in trying to figure out the outcome of one's life at such a young age. I am young. I'll admit it. haha. I don't know why some people have a hard time admitting that age does correlate with experience and the less years that you have lived, the less experience that you have. Some people are able to gain more from fewer experiences than others however, but still... I don't know NEARLY as much as I hope to gather in the upcoming years.

Anyways, if you are a frequent blog stalker, you probably saw my "life plan" going to LB state, fashion merchandising, a dog, the whole 9 yards. However, THAT'S NOT WHAT I WANT. I am what you would call an "active agonizer". I make my decisions by deciding on something then feeling it out for a little bit, literally agonizing over the possibilities that arise from a given choice. To the average person capable of cognitive processes would assume that I am the most indecisive person ever, and even may appear to be indifferent. However, that is not the case. I am constantly running over in my mind what exactly I want from life, and what is important to me.

Since ending a relationship, one life plan gave way to another: Long Beach. However, these lists of things to accomplish take away from the whole point of the human condition. Constant analyzation and adjustment. Of course, it's easier once accomplishing a tast to have another one waiting in order to avoid the agonizing that comes from uncertainty of the next step. However, I have learned that LIFE PLANS DON'T WORK. This is not to say that one should "go with the flow" that is irresponsible. One should ALWAYS be working, aspiring towards something.

Once letting go of the step by step life plan, I have developed a real life plan. One that is void of accomplisments or to do's. It is quite simple but it consists of this simple statement:

FIND AS MUCH GOOD AS POSSIBLE, BECAUSE IT IS FROM GOOD THAT TRUTH STEMS AND HAPPINESS IS FOUND.

This statment probably just sounds like common sense. Of course, everyone wants to be a good person, right. However, when you actually adopt this way of viewing things, I can testify that your life with change. When you allow fear, (which is not good) to leave there is a freedom that comes from seeking out good and peace that replaces that fear. I admit that I have let fear stop me from achieving what I truly want. For example, I have let the fear of "not finding anyone else/better" take control of my actions, and stayed in something longer than i should have. However, when I looked for good and peace, that fear vanished and I became whole as an individual independent of anyone esle confident that I would find better. Little did I know that better was just around the corner...

Meet Andy:

I have never been to be one of those girls that NEEDS to be in a realtionship in order to validate my own self worth. I LOVE being single : ) I wasn't seriously looking for anyone else, just having fun being single and looking for hope, that there were such things as GOOD GUYS. This is where Andy popped up. I saw him on my cousin megan's facebook in her pictures and was friends with all of my fresno friends. I thought you was verrryyyy attractive and so i sent him a message and the rest is history. We started talking while in ohio, and the very night that I came into town in fresno we went on a date. haha. I was the one telling him how much I hated boys, and that I didn't really want to go out, because boys are all the same. Andy has proven to me that all guys arent the same, and for that I am so grateful. Most importantly, I have found SO MUCH GOOD spending time with him, therefore accomplishing my life plan.

I feel like the luckiest girl in the world. Everything is just falling into place... not to say that things just happen without effort or pain. I have been through pain, anxiety, many sleepless nights. It's not easy leaving behind what you know is no longer good for something, even though you know what is ahead will be easier. BUT, it is worth it. From all of this good entering my life, and seeking good I feel like I have achieved genuine happiness and not just counterfit happiness. I am ready to take on this crazy world, one step at a time.